29/09/2010

i luv e nite

Voyage

staying up all nite, thinking, suddenly realise life is a long voyage tat is pointless without a destination to look forward to...

I care too much le... I wry n wry 4 ppl ard me... I wonder y?

I hate it when ppl r sad...

Sadness seem to surround me whenever there's a chance 4 it 2 pop by...

when will i be happy? I can no longer count de number of times I cry for ppl ard me..

whenever they r hurt or sad, I can't help it but be influence by them...

I will blame myself of my helplessness. I always wish tat they can be more happy..

LTNC

It been so long since i blog abt anything...

got myself a part time job but after working for 3 weeks, i am out of job agn :/

gonna do my pp soon...

been toking with my fren abt r/s

Dun u feel it weird? the start of r/s is so sweet n blissful, but as time pass, de feeling changes to distrust n pain...

Maybe being single is better den commiting to something tat won't last ^^

Start happy Darren. U deserve better.

POOL

Hmmm, damn. I end up going for training too early AGAIN!!!

haha, i purposely late for 15 mins, but apparently people r juz 2 used to being late that even my coach turn up 4 de training at 10.30am -.-

haha. Damn, kena ps by ppl agn. K, i admit that saturday is definately not the best time tat ppl wan go back 4 a 4hrs training but I dun expect me 2 be de only junior member who turn up 4 de remedial training...

Wa lao, i seriously have no talent in looking at angle. I swear.

today play de jia jui game. meaning potting ur cue ball into the pocket after contact with ur object ball. u r supposed to control the direction of how ur cue ball goes.

Got thrash by my coach n de seniors =.=" den i continue to practice until someone challenge me 9-ball.

HAHA, i win. 5 game to 2. my lady luck smiling at me like nobody business sia...

Second guy, one of the seasoned pro senior member. was leading 4 game to 2 den i start to get distracted n give away free ball until he reverse the score to 5game to 4game. Lost, but feel damn happy cuz i used to lost to de guy without potting any ball once.

A conflicting Saturday

After chatting with her on MSN on Friday, I feel so happy. It seem as if the wall that is between us are torn down...

I was feel with joy as I wake up n went 4 my pool training.

But apparently it seem that all is false joy cuz she does not reply my msg now...

WOW... How many more roller coaster ride or izzit a straight down purge?? Hopefully she can realise how much she meant 2 me.

emotions

I know i am not good enough 4 u...

I will work hard 2 live up de the standard so tat I can be worthy of u...

You are all n everything 2 me ~

Luv

Training

In a bad mood today, it took her ard 3 hrs 2 msg me back... I really care alot 4 her sia. She is on my mind all de time, b4 i slp, when i woke up, during my meals.

A tiny bit in my heart hope 4 de best between me n her...