tears of blood

29/09/2010

2010-09-29T07:44:00.000-07:00

i luv e nite

Voyage

2010-09-28T17:09:00.000-07:00

staying up all nite, thinking, suddenly realise life is a long voyage tat is pointless without a destination to look forward to...

I care too much le... I wry n wry 4 ppl ard me... I wonder y?

I hate it when ppl r sad...

Sadness seem to surround me whenever there's a chance 4 it 2 pop by...

when will i be happy? I can no longer count de number of times I cry for ppl ard me..

whenever they r hurt or sad, I can't help it but be influence by them...

I will blame myself of my helplessness. I always wish tat they can be more happy..

LTNC

2010-09-19T23:22:00.000-07:00

It been so long since i blog abt anything...

got myself a part time job but after working for 3 weeks, i am out of job agn :/

gonna do my pp soon...

been toking with my fren abt r/s

Dun u feel it weird? the start of r/s is so sweet n blissful, but as time pass, de feeling changes to distrust n pain...

Maybe being single is better den commiting to something tat won't last ^^

Start happy Darren. U deserve better.

POOL

2010-07-17T10:37:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, damn. I end up going for training too early AGAIN!!!

haha, i purposely late for 15 mins, but apparently people r juz 2 used to being late that even my coach turn up 4 de training at 10.30am -.-

haha. Damn, kena ps by ppl agn. K, i admit that saturday is definately not the best time tat ppl wan go back 4 a 4hrs training but I dun expect me 2 be de only junior member who turn up 4 de remedial training...

Wa lao, i seriously have no talent in looking at angle. I swear.

today play de jia jui game. meaning potting ur cue ball into the pocket after contact with ur object ball. u r supposed to control the direction of how ur cue ball goes.

Got thrash by my coach n de seniors =.=" den i continue to practice until someone challenge me 9-ball.

HAHA, i win. 5 game to 2. my lady luck smiling at me like nobody business sia...

Second guy, one of the seasoned pro senior member. was leading 4 game to 2 den i start to get distracted n give away free ball until he reverse the score to 5game to 4game. Lost, but feel damn happy cuz i used to lost to de guy without potting any ball once.

A conflicting Saturday

2010-07-03T06:49:00.000-07:00

After chatting with her on MSN on Friday, I feel so happy. It seem as if the wall that is between us are torn down...

I was feel with joy as I wake up n went 4 my pool training.

But apparently it seem that all is false joy cuz she does not reply my msg now...

WOW... How many more roller coaster ride or izzit a straight down purge?? Hopefully she can realise how much she meant 2 me.

emotions

2010-06-28T09:25:00.000-07:00

I know i am not good enough 4 u...

I will work hard 2 live up de the standard so tat I can be worthy of u...

You are all n everything 2 me ~

Luv

Training

2010-06-27T06:26:00.000-07:00

In a bad mood today, it took her ard 3 hrs 2 msg me back... I really care alot 4 her sia. She is on my mind all de time, b4 i slp, when i woke up, during my meals.

A tiny bit in my heart hope 4 de best between me n her...

Encounters ;)

2010-06-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

tks 2 pc, I get 2 work today from 3 to 7pm today, $6 per hour.

I was actually considering whether to go anot but glad I did...

Met some friendly ppl there and glad I met two cute gals there, riona and angela.
Both of them is quite talkative n entertaining so my day pass quickly =)

Agony...

2010-06-24T07:32:00.000-07:00

I hate it whenever I look at u...
I hate it when u laugh cuz of other guys...
I hate it when my inside twist cuz of jealousy TT

U know? Love really is a gateway to pain n suffering...

Since birth there aren't any Love in my life. I am foreign to this notion of caring and pining for someone with ur heart.

Maybe I'm meant 2 be alone... Destined to be stranger with Love.

...

2010-06-23T08:57:00.000-07:00

today i gain n lose something in a single day. i will nvr let u know cuz i know tat it wont matter 2 u...

I am not even worth a grain of sand in ur eyes...

//Another Day//

2010-06-22T10:35:00.000-07:00

basketball

I am glad that at least I can still play basketball

even when everything n everyone is leaving my life...

A friend I appreciate...

2009-06-26T08:16:00.000-07:00

I appreciate everyday I have my friends around me... Cos I noe I'm not alone...

Eric was there for me 2day. We played basketball at Jurong Street 13 for abt an hour or so b4 we sat down n hv a gd chat...

We really hv a lot in common... We both been plump (I'm still fat), we both love a person with all our heart, We both been hurt by the person we loved the most...

He shared his experience with me n make me think even farther... Do I still have the courage to at least look for her again? Or should I like Eric says, letting go of a tree for the entire forest out there?

Eric, thanks for being the best friend I could ever ask for. Hope our friendship last as long as we live ^^

Wish U were here....

2009-06-25T07:40:00.000-07:00

I just dun get it... Y I just can't control my emotion...

I want 2 be a indifferent person... So I will not feel e pain whenever I saw ur shadow...

Ur laughter, ur childishness, ur smile, ur words, and ur eyes. All tis used 2 fill my life with joy.

I used 2 wait for ur phone call everyday enjoying the moments when we chat on e phone.

We used 2 go out tgt just u n me...... We can just purely enjoy the company of each other...

Y? Can't our friendship continue...
I know u will nvr loved me but all I ever want is a little attention from u.
I jus wish tat u were here...

09/06/2009

2009-06-09T05:31:00.000-07:00

I want 2 thanks Valerie for all her efforts 2 set up this blog for me =)
Today, I went 2 school 2 play basketball and badminton.
But the badminton session is cancelled...
Was abit disappointed cos it is since secondary school tat i hv played badminton...

I was playing basketball alone when Kenneth join me for the basketball ard 3.45pm.

We stop ard 5pm den wash up b4 we meet Valerie and Mei Wei for dinner.

We left Causeway Point ard 7pm and Valerie went 2 meet Sieyea.

Congrat 2 Sieyea for getting a job!!!

Hopefully she can adapt 2 the new working enviroment :)

●ω●

2009-06-08T11:18:00.000-07:00

hello,, jojo is here ><